The life before me

Being struck after dinner and a couple of pints today, I've seen my life pass before me, my previous life. Have you experienced it anytime? It seems that any other time worked better for you and you start recalling all types of people you have met and episodes you have lived. You get your eyes staring through different angles in space, but up to a fair distance beyond and your mind goes away and away, reviewing. The feeling can be described as an enormous sense of nostalgia, coped with a final detail of uncertainty in the future. You wish to talk about the old times unstoppably with a friend from the ol' times, and long for having him or her in front of you sitting at the table. Your friend is not here and so you yearn and long for it. Nevertheless, rationally, there is not reason to think that those ol' times were better at all, but still, the sense is predominant. I guess this is an experience recognizable for the inductee, but not for the layman. A singular iniciatic experience. If you have lived something of the sort, you will very well know what I am talking about. Of course, you need to be a little loose to release the thick hawser anchoring your dignities and selves here and now, have yourself levitate a little, and take your life across such a frightful, heavy-hearted perspective. Don't look for it, anyhow, won't find it. The initiatic distortions will find youuuuu. You must pay your duty to life the way it takes and as it pleases and, either you like it or not, you will have it _will have that uncontrolled defile of images and emotions. However, make sure you give your respects to and only to life. No matter if thorny and disgraceful, unfair and desperate, (always you will be short-eyed and ungrateful, as a matter of fact), life won't be frivolous itself, nor fake, nor plastic, but will just be real and that's what counts. Embrace it as it comes and fight your way through to plenitude. In days like today, although for only the time elapsed for the drink of two pints of beer, I realize life's all I possess.